A successful scouting trip left us with much to ponder.
Good vibes from an unexpected place.
The road is long my friend.

A successful scouting trip left us with much to ponder.
Good vibes from an unexpected place.
The road is long my friend.
There are signs of the coming of Fall.
Canadian Geese have lit upon the lake, acorns on
the Oaks are growing larger and I have a strong
urge to return to the lands of Middle Earth.
I will not be able to make the entire journey this
time but that may be just as well.
I certainly wish I could have found the other 2 books but such is the nature of thrift store finds.I will miss my favorite, The Two Towers.
The edition I’m reading is a nice hardcover reader.
Worn just enough to have that seasoned character of a second hand bookbut still remain structurally sound, a book that
when read doesn’t requite you to fret over the condition…too much.
A goodly aged smell to the pages andthe spine, though ‘cracked’, still holds the pages
secure and allows for a full opening of the book. Also, a paper dust wrapper with some wear but one that doesn’t disintegrate in your hands every time you handle it.
A good, solid reader.
Normally my reading copies for LotR are the
Ballantine paperbacks from the sixties but, after
handling this hardcover from Houghton Mifflin I may switch over?
That sounds sacrilegious for me to think and I will
certainly not make that statement aloud…I will however, ponder on it.
Regardless, I have set of once again into Middle
Earth and The War of the Ring…the first part anyway.
My first Ren Fest was Minnesota…1982!
I was, enthralled.
Second trip,1986.
I bought a royal blue or cobalt blue goblet that
year.
At some point in my life, in a mad fit of purging I got rid of it.
I regret that now.
Since 2008 and every year after, minus 2020 (canceled due to Covid concerns) my friend and I have been attending the CO Ren Fest.
Nothing much really changes but we go
regardless, just to take it all in.
We never tire of it.
Now, back in MN where my fascination with the fest
began I managed to score from a local thrift/antique
place this 1987 MN Ren Fest mug!
Though not an 86′ and certainly not blue it’s still a great artifact from a different era.
Huzzah!
Of course, I consider myself a renegade member of The Family of Light, Systems Buster… on call.
IF you find this type of thing compelling, you may not be ‘from here’ as well…just say’n.
As if by some strange magic, as if out of nowhere, a massive wave of depression crashes over me.
Fell magics are at work against me and dread once again grips me at night, past the witching hour and on through to the early morning pre-dawn.
Idle hands hasten the foul feelings that drift inside my mind.
I must stay busy lest I fall victim to sadness and sleep.
I find myself searching for something that is boxed up and a thousand miles away in mountain storage.
Sometimes it’s a book I seek and other times an artifact from adventures past, but mostly it’s a piece of home, comfort…familiarity.
Intangible items inside my head.
An afternoon storm crossed the lake yesterday, tumultuous and short lived, laden with rain and bursts of wind.
And though I was briefly distracted by the tempest, once again the dark thoughts returned, unease.
I am under a weird spell of separation from city and work.
A ranger returned to the wild, broken.
I’m finding it hard to relax and connect to this place and freedom once again.
I felt the same when I began my adventure in the city.
It took 2 years to adjust to that environment.
I observed even then the laughable reality of a ranger out of his environment and lost…until I figure it out.
And now, another change.
It is all for the good, of that I have no doubt, but this transition is difficult.
And of course, where do we go from here?
Uncertainty is the enemy.
I was very much late to the greatness that is Manowar and having only ‘discovered’ them around 2012 I quickly became a fan and now count myself as a brother within The Hall.
There are many of their songs I take inspiration from but currently this is at the top of the list.
Heart of Steel
Manowar
Build a fire a thousand miles away
to light my long way home
I ride a comet
My trail is long to stay
Silence is a heavy stone
I fight the world and take all they can give
There are times my heart hangs low
Born to walk against the wind
Born to hear my name
No matter where I stand I’m alone
Burn the bridge behind you
Leave no retreat
There’s only one way home
Those who laugh and crowd the path
and cut each other’s throats
Will fall like melting snow
They’ll watch us rise with fire in our eyes
They’ll bow their heads
Their hearts will hang low
Then we’ll laugh and they will kneel
and know this heart of steel was
Too hard to break
Too hard to hold
Stand and fight
Live by your heart
Always one more try
I’m not afraid to die
Stand and fight
Say what you feel
Born with a heart of steel!